LETTERS YOU'LL NEVER GET TO READ

 LETTERS YOU'LL NEVER GET TO READ

Dear worrying self,

I know I'm not perfect

Sometimes I'd probably need more attention

Other times I'd want no affection

And most of the times I'd just need a hug and a shoulder to cry on

I'm probably not the kind of man you want in your life

Maybe I'm too troublesome and my life's chaotic

Maybe along the way you'll get tired of my depressed self 

Maybe you'll get irritated when my anxiety kicks in

I don't want you to promise that you'll always be there

But I want assurance that you'll not only be around on my happy days

I wanna see you too on my gloomy days

I wanna be goofy and clingy with you when my heart aches and I just need a release

I wanna smile genuinely past my dull expression just cz you are there to cheer me up

I know probably this piece doesn't make any sense

Maybe it's coz there's a veil of tears covering my eyes

Or maybe it's the heaviness I feel in my chest that I desperately want to offload

Or probably is the fact that I wanna tell you alot of things but I'm afraid you won't even listen

Because maybe my story and my worry isn't something to tell

So I'd rather die slowly from within

And write more of these letters you'll probably never get to read.

@Travelling loner